Domino Effect?

I hate when I let other peoples moods effect my own. If one person that I'm hanging out with is sad then I'll be upset. Like right now Dylans upset about god only knows what, which has me upset, which then makes me think of all the things that upsets me and it then induces my anxiety. I hate that one or two people can have the much of an effect on me. Am I that weak and narrow minded? I'm sure like most thing this too will pass but for now I will sit here in my silent depression caused by the sorrows of only one person.

Life Man

I guess the easiest way to put it is that today didn't turn out exactly as I had planned it. I was suppose to go see Olivia today and I had even went all the way to Logansport to do it. Surprise surprise. I didn't get to see her. Instead I sat in a car with Mark the whole time listening to him complain about my mother and me counseling him on how to better there relationship. In the end I argued with my mom like I normally do and I had her and my grandma take me back to Manchester. Is it weird that just entering Logansport alone gave me anxiety that never let up until I got back to Manchester. I just cant believe that i hate it so much there now. Oh well I guess I'll have to get over it. The school year is almost over. I guess I should probably get back to my homework if I expect to be able to come back here next year.

Family 4 Sail

Am I allowed to sell my family on ebay? What about craigs list? Once again I am facing the wrath of my mother and the ignorance of my father. Andrews coming into town and my dads life is all about him. I pissed my mom off and I guess as a way to get back at me is by keeping me away from Olivia. My dads in the process of seeing what he can do to fix the situation but in all honesty I'm not holding my breath!

Transition Time

I'm kinda in a mind set of stopping this blog and once again starting a new one.  Will I actually do it? I don't know. I think my life has moved on from what this blog started out to be. I feel like everything's so much different now and the things that once meant the world to me now don't mean anything. It's hard to think that once upon a time ago I wanted to stay in Logan or somewhere close to be near family. Now I know for a fact that I'm leaving and I think I'm gonna move to Cinci.

My dad once told me that once I got to college everything would change. Its not that I didn't believe him or anything but I guess I didn't expect things to change as much as they did. I have friends here that I have only known for 8 months and I feel like I've known them for my whole life. I love them all so much and could never imagine my life without any of them.

It makes me slightly sad to know that I'm leaving a life that I once cherished so much behind. I had so many fond memories with so many people and its not like I'm going to stop being friends with people or stop doing things I use to do, its just now they don't mean as much to me or I don't find it as much fun as I use to.

Life does move on and change. I'm in one of those transitional phases I guess. Only time will tell will tell where I end up.

Normal is good

Things are back to normal and to be honest I'm glad. I'm glad to be back in Manchester with my friends and I have made it my mission to try harder in all my classes so that I can actually come back next year! I quit my job an Dollar General and could not be happier. It was just way to much stress in my life. I've decided that I'm going to live with my father this summer. The concept that I can't even have one phone call with my mother without fighting is just sad. Theres no way that I could live with her.

I'm beginning to come to terms with the fact that I'm officially an adult which mean It's time I start making my own decisions. For awhile now I have been wanting to move out of Indiana. The more I talk to Dylan that more I think i'll actually do it. Theres just nothing here for me and I can't help but get the constant despair out of the back of my mind when I think about staying here. I don't know. I have a few years left to decide.

For now though I'm outta here. Gotta go to lunch and then class.