It happens

So I'm coming to the conclusion that sierra just went out of her way to view my blog just so that she could see if I write about her. It's what ever I guess. She can yell at me all she wants in a public forum but that doesn't mean Ill listen. For her benefit thought not only did I make my already privatized blog more private, I made it so not even she was allowed to view it. I thought she understood how I was when I wrote and that I did it as a way to vent but I guess not. We've both changed and we've both gone separate ways. Am I upset? Maybe with somethings I might be but If were both seeing things in a different way then it's better off that were not friends then rather us fight all the time. I don't plan on keeping my blog private forever but for a little bit I will. Just appeasing the crowds.

Summers A Peach

Well maybe not a peach but a real pain in my ass.

Where to start. Hmm maybe with the fact that Dylan has decided to ditch me for next year and now I'm not really sure what I'm going to do now that I'm left alone.

Then there is the new revelation of my friends. Sierras even more of a bitch that you cant hold a conversation with. Your not allowed to have an opinion or make a statement without her blowing up on you.

Then there's Buzbee who keeps claiming that he's changed a lot and you know he's right he has but not as much as he thinks. I've just been having problems coming to terms with the fact that he's changed I guess.

Oh You Know

Oh hey. Its me

So a lots happened of course. My mom and me are umm not the same. I believe I told her to "go fuck herself" Egh it happens.

I also told buzbee that I dont love him anymore. Its killing me a little bit but it needed to happen.

Controversy Set Right

Do you think that gay marriage should be legal?
Of course
Do you think that gays should be allowed to seve in the military?
Why not? There just as capable
What do you think about people who don't believe in god?
Good for you. Glad you made your own decisions.
Are you pro life or pro choice?
Pro choice. Do what you want with that babe
Do you think we should test on animals?
Yes, to an extent
How do you feel about illegal immigration?
Its what evs. Just dont take my job.
Do you think it is ethical to do stem cell research?
DAFUQ is dat?
Should be get rid of the death penalty?
Noooooo firing squads all around!
Is torture ever acceptable?
If your gonna kill them in the end might as well
Should the government have a say on our diets?
Oh yea! Make the kids run!
Should the alcoholic drinking age be increased or decreased?
Decreased. If we can fight for are country we should be allowed to drink
Should cigarette smoking be banned?
Nah. Tobbacco brings in to much money for the country. Plus ppl are happy

Stay Gucci

Well once again its been a bit of time since I've posted anything. Things have been a bit of a roller coaster but nothing to bad. School has officially let out and that depresses me more then it really should. I'm actually suppose to go home today but I'm spending an extra night at Dylans. I'm just not ready yet. Theres been a lot of crazy boy drama in my life.

Gage has been texting my and informed me that when we drink together that if anything happens, I cant tell his girlfriend. HA! like anythings ever gonna happen!

Jordan and me drank together the other night which was fun until he felt me up and kissed me. Not saying I didn't mind but he has a girlfriend and that kinda kills me inside. Worst of all is that I realized that I'm still in love with him so theres that..

Eric just happens to be my new boyfriend. Hes ginger and 25. Has two degrees and I like him a lot but not as much as I like Buzbee.

Hunter is hunter. I feel slightly bad because right after the Jordan thing and right before me and eric got together I kinda slept with him. First time we had sex and it was actually good tho so theres that.

The there's Dylan. I have never met someone who means so much to me and someone who I've fallen for so hard. He really is different from everyone else. I am however I think finally getting over him. I need time and space!

Things are pretty solid with everyone. Nate and Holly are together now which is weird as all hell. Allison and Myles are Gucci. Nate broke up with his gal which made him sassy as heck. Dylan found a lady friend named Hannah which is causing not only him great distress but everyone around him as well. Eugene is Eugene. Our dear Jared is leaving us and then theres me, I'm just doing my thing.

I quit my job at the DG and hopefully have a job for next year as the media consultant for the athletics department. I also got a job as a SOL which is pretty rad.

Life is good

Domino Effect?

I hate when I let other peoples moods effect my own. If one person that I'm hanging out with is sad then I'll be upset. Like right now Dylans upset about god only knows what, which has me upset, which then makes me think of all the things that upsets me and it then induces my anxiety. I hate that one or two people can have the much of an effect on me. Am I that weak and narrow minded? I'm sure like most thing this too will pass but for now I will sit here in my silent depression caused by the sorrows of only one person.

Life Man

I guess the easiest way to put it is that today didn't turn out exactly as I had planned it. I was suppose to go see Olivia today and I had even went all the way to Logansport to do it. Surprise surprise. I didn't get to see her. Instead I sat in a car with Mark the whole time listening to him complain about my mother and me counseling him on how to better there relationship. In the end I argued with my mom like I normally do and I had her and my grandma take me back to Manchester. Is it weird that just entering Logansport alone gave me anxiety that never let up until I got back to Manchester. I just cant believe that i hate it so much there now. Oh well I guess I'll have to get over it. The school year is almost over. I guess I should probably get back to my homework if I expect to be able to come back here next year.

Family 4 Sail

Am I allowed to sell my family on ebay? What about craigs list? Once again I am facing the wrath of my mother and the ignorance of my father. Andrews coming into town and my dads life is all about him. I pissed my mom off and I guess as a way to get back at me is by keeping me away from Olivia. My dads in the process of seeing what he can do to fix the situation but in all honesty I'm not holding my breath!

Transition Time

I'm kinda in a mind set of stopping this blog and once again starting a new one.  Will I actually do it? I don't know. I think my life has moved on from what this blog started out to be. I feel like everything's so much different now and the things that once meant the world to me now don't mean anything. It's hard to think that once upon a time ago I wanted to stay in Logan or somewhere close to be near family. Now I know for a fact that I'm leaving and I think I'm gonna move to Cinci.

My dad once told me that once I got to college everything would change. Its not that I didn't believe him or anything but I guess I didn't expect things to change as much as they did. I have friends here that I have only known for 8 months and I feel like I've known them for my whole life. I love them all so much and could never imagine my life without any of them.

It makes me slightly sad to know that I'm leaving a life that I once cherished so much behind. I had so many fond memories with so many people and its not like I'm going to stop being friends with people or stop doing things I use to do, its just now they don't mean as much to me or I don't find it as much fun as I use to.

Life does move on and change. I'm in one of those transitional phases I guess. Only time will tell will tell where I end up.

Normal is good

Things are back to normal and to be honest I'm glad. I'm glad to be back in Manchester with my friends and I have made it my mission to try harder in all my classes so that I can actually come back next year! I quit my job an Dollar General and could not be happier. It was just way to much stress in my life. I've decided that I'm going to live with my father this summer. The concept that I can't even have one phone call with my mother without fighting is just sad. Theres no way that I could live with her.

I'm beginning to come to terms with the fact that I'm officially an adult which mean It's time I start making my own decisions. For awhile now I have been wanting to move out of Indiana. The more I talk to Dylan that more I think i'll actually do it. Theres just nothing here for me and I can't help but get the constant despair out of the back of my mind when I think about staying here. I don't know. I have a few years left to decide.

For now though I'm outta here. Gotta go to lunch and then class.