This I life

I feel like I owe this blog a post. Maybe a catch up post and a post telling about what I'm about to do. Odds are I wont be posting in this for a few weeks because I'm about to go to girls state.So let me break it down for you on whats happening and whats about to happen.

Phone- Yep so I am truly beginning to hate apple products. No joke I cant do anything with this damn thing. Every time I try to text or even get on an app it closes out and I'm not able to do anything. I went to Indi over the weekend and the only thing they did was tell me to reset. Dude I seriously wouldn't of traveled two hours to fix a phone if I wouldn't have tried that already. Ugh so I'm going to try it one more time and if it doesn't work then I'm just going to throw it at a wall.

Friends
James- Hes Like my best friend. I finally have are relationship in the right part. I know exactly how to act and I love it. I'm so glad I have someone in my life like him. We've been hanging out a lot and its really going to suck that I wont get to see him for like two weeks. Lame!
Sierra- Shes doing good. I don't get to see her a lot lately but from what I hear shes good. I know shes loving her job a lot and her and Matt are doing good so one would assume its all good.
Mariah- Shes doing good as well. Besides them having to worry about there momma and there cancer, I know shes in Chicago having fun.
K-nub- I don't really know how hes doing. I know his parents are splitting up which sucks but hopefully things will get better for him.

Family
mom- Mommas doing good. Marks moved in with her and everything seems to be alright. she seems happier now which is always good.
dad- Egh idk, idc.
grandma- I love this women and I owe her so much. She has practically paid for my entire Girls State trip. I don't know what I would do with out her.

Girls State- So here with in like four days I'm going to be hanging out with 600 other girls. I'm so excited but I'm super upset that i am cutting myself out of the world but that will only make people love and miss me a lot more :P

Camelot- So I started to work there. I always thought I never would but now that I am I actually like it. I am in love with all of the kids and I actually enjoy my job which is weird. I am An activity aid so I have to do activity's with the kids which is a lot of fun. I might actually think about making this into a career or something.

Life- I'm actually really happy right now. Everything is amazing. I am so happy and my life is really content. I just hope it stays this way for awhile. Fingers Crossed!!!!

Trial and Error

So I thought it would hurt for him to tell me that he didn't want to be with me after everything we've been through. I thought id feel lost and empty and wouldn't know what to do with myself but its the complete opposite.

Ive come to realize that it was a good thing that we didn't date. I don't like him like that. Ive never had a boy that's a friend, that was as close to me as he is, so with my rational thinking i thought that it meant we had to be more. I'm so dumb sometimes.

Were going to continue being close friends. Were good at it and we both make each other happy. I just hope he wont replace me with another girl. Heaven knows he couldn't find another best friend like me in another girl. Yea shit happens and at first I kind of wondered why he didn't want to be with me and I was freaking out about my faults but I get it now. Whether he told me the truth or not on why he didn't want to be with me, idc. I'm me, and I refuse to change for someone else. Yea I know I'm a nerd, a dork, very dramatic, and in general just plain weird, but I'm happy with my life that way and I'm not about to change it for someone else.

Sorry bro but I'm not changing and if you want to be with me your going to have to accept all my quirks. :)