Secrets

Oh by the way figured id break a big rule. here's my high school log in information

Username- Riccian
Password- Bread

I know crazy! I've been typing the word bread into computers for the last 13 years! lmao i don't even know but it makes me happy.

My Time Is Up

Ive been at Logansport High School for 4 years. Ive been in the school system for 13. I feel like i should have something deep and meaningful to say about my time in school but I really don't. I could give you a list about everything I learned but lets be honest, do you even care? Probably not but I will give you some major things that Ive learned.

1. Friends come and go, its a fact of life, yes it sucks and feels like the end of the world when its happening but when its all over with you ll be glad there gone.

2. If you want to succeed then you have to try, things wont just be given to you.

3. life isn't fair, learn to accept it.

4. While your lifes in chaos always remember that there is someone there. Your not alone.

5. I think Kelly clarkson said it best when she said what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. The whole school process is a learning experience that will build you and change you into a great person.

Yea its lame but this is what I got out of school. Like most people there are some things that i wish i could of done differently but I'm not going to dwell on it now.

I thought when i would reach this day i would be sad and so upset but to be honest i feel like I'm ready. I'm ready for college and I'm ready to get out on my own and be a grown up. I'm sure ill have a lot of challenges in the future and I'm ready for them. ill miss seeing all my friends everyday but that's a part of life. its time for us to go in are own directions and meet up in ten years. Ill miss my classes and teachers. Ill miss how easy life was for me here but its time for me to start the next leg of the race. I need new challenges and new adventure so for now i say abiento to high school. You were fun but I'm out of here.

Manchester Bound

Yay! I'm so excited to go to Manchester and i pretty much already have a trip to Paris planned for January with one of the kids there. I don't know what i was thinking when i said i didn't want to go to Manchester and i was gonna stay home. God what a mistake that would of been! I start school in September and i have so much stuff i have to get done. Here i was thinking things were gonna get easier but in reality they might just be getting busier. Oh well still worth it.

My Awesome Day

I swear all I've done today is write up contingency plans and executive summaries. Thank god though i am finally done with my business plan project! Normally on a day like this i would be very bleh and just ready to get home buttttt I'm not.

See I got this letter today from my guidance teacher. This lovely letter told me that I won a scholarship or more at the senior ceremony! YAY!!!! I am so happy. Hopefully I win enough to go to Manchester.

Second, I am happy camper because i get my tattoo fixed up today. (about time)

And last i am happy because i have my award ceremony today where i get inducted into the technical Honor Society and i get my award for the Skilled Scholar!

I'm just a happy camper!

Future

All this time i kept wanting to get out and when i finally got the opportunity i froze. I'm still not sure if my excuses were legit or if they were just that, excuses. The more i think about it the more i realize that I'm scared. I don't think I'm ready but then again to we ever know when were truly ready to be on our own. I feel like everything is happening so fast and I'm about to be thrust out into the world on my own.

The way i see it is that i have three options, The safe route, the risky route and the route where i don't come back. The safe route as we all know is Ivy Tech. I get to stay home work my two jobs, not pay for anything and stay with my friends. I'm not getting a great diploma but in the end I'm not to worried.

The risky route is going to Manchester. I will technically be on my own but ill still be living close enough to home that i get to see my family. The tuition is a lot and id be paying a lot more money but the degree i would earn there is almost worth it, not to mention the concept that i get to travel abroad.

Now we talk about the route where i don't come back. Six hours away from here is a school called university of southern Indiana. I would love to go there but i would be so far away that i would rarely come home. Id lose my Friends and everything in my old life will become distant. but i would be starting new. i would finally be free and tuition there is cheaper then Manchester.I loved that college from the moment i first visited. Everything about it feel right except the location. This is the college i want but I don't know if losing everything is worth gaining the unknown.

 My future is riding on this month. Anything that happens now will be the deciding factor. Now though is when i need to decide if i want to start thinking for my self and my own well being or if i want ot worry about everything i could lose. I have 7 days till I find out my future so excuse me if im a bit on edge these next few days.

Make Over

I'm gonna try and find some time but I really want to make over my blog. it needs some changing its been this way since 2010!

Hypocrit? Maybe.

I feel like I'm about to sound a lot like a hypocrite but to be honest i don't think i am one. Lately i have just been surrounded by so many people who are always soo freaking negative and it is just driving me insane. From the point i step into school in the morning to the point i go to bed, all i hear are negative comments from everyone around me. I cant handle it any more.

its one thing for people to make fun of me, go for, i really don't care. but it makes me mad when someone try to ruin something that you've strived for or something that your looking forward too. Your comments aren't necessary and i do understand that they are your opinions but to be honest if you hate it so much why the hell are you ranting about it? you cant change it.

I'm sure i could go all postal over them but normally  i just keep my mouth shut and read my kindle. I seriously do not want to be getting into any drama or fights. Now for me i know i do the same thing but i try not to do it to my friends. I mean i probably have not realizing it but it was never on purpose. if your Friend is trying to put you down on purpose then why the hell are they your friend. I feel stupid not saying anything but in all reality i would rather just not get into it. I'm under way to much stress right now to deal with it.

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