I think that I'm going to start doing a weekly recap on top of all my other post. I just want to reflect on everything that's happened within my week and possibly what I might of learned.
22. I don't remember much of this day just that I worked a late shift.
23. I worked the morning shift and nearly died from exhaustion. I went home afterwards and picked up my brother and then went Christmas shopping with my little brother.
24. Woke up early and went home. Mom and me went shopping from Christmas breakfast and then we went to my grandma brubakers and celebrated a very fun Christmas. I always feel like Christmas at her house is magical. Afterwards I went to the movies with Sierra and saw the Hobbit. There was a lot of obnoxious boys in that theater.
25. Woke up, made pancakes and opened presents with my mom, nick and mark. Went to my grandpa Ricci's and celebrated with my huge family. There had to have been over 50 people this year. Later we went to dads and opened presents there. It was fun.
26. Got up and went to Kokomo with Devon, Knub, and Sierra. We went shopping and got dinner. When we got back to logan John, Buzbee, and James joined us at the bowling alley and we played pool like old times.
27. This is the day where my car went to shit. My breaks went out and my transmission started leaking. I went with my mom and mark to Kokomo to get dinner and my dads truck for me to drive. We shopped and it was fun.
28. Went and got lunch with Jordan and Sierra and then went to Monticello to go shopping with my mom.
Overall it was a fun week. I learned and reflected a lot on family relationships and traditions. Its weird to be missing some in my life that I once had. I also came to the conclusion that I really like thinking and talking about a child's development through enviormental sources. I kinda got into researching it and I think i could put those practices into action through Psychology. Hmm
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Home for the Holidays
Indeed I did get to come home this year. So far so good I guess. We have the usual gossip in the family of course. I guess Ally called Andrews commander and told him that Andrew hasn't been taking care of her and Olivia. Andrews actually gonna get in a lot of trouble because Since he is in the military and married he gets a bonus in his check just for his family. The only real shitty part in this whole thing is that Andrew has been taking care of Olivia by sending 200 dollars a month to her. God ally just pisses me off so much.
Other then that this whole thing is going great. I went and got some Christmas presents last night with my dad and brother, got some more this morning and now im at my grandmas house getting ready to celebrate Christmas eve here. It should be fun :)
Other then that this whole thing is going great. I went and got some Christmas presents last night with my dad and brother, got some more this morning and now im at my grandmas house getting ready to celebrate Christmas eve here. It should be fun :)
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Re-Dreamin
Ok so I had a dream last night that I've actually had at least two other times in my life.
So it always starts out with my father doing something bad that he shouldn't have. He gets aways but I end up taking the blame. This group of guys who have the resemblance of a mob come and grab me. They take me into the basement and tie me up. There idea of killing me is grotesque. They take a knife and cut my face straight down the middle. They left me there to bleed out and die. They actually did think I was dead. They left and later the bosses sick and twisted kids came down that were my age. Generally they left me alone to act dead and what not until the boy began getting a feeling for becoming a necrophiliac. Of course I had to act dead through the whole thing. Finally they left and I came around to the present. As I woke up an old lady who I think was a witch doctor in disguise as a maid was standing in the doorway. She partially healed my face but I still have an ugly mark running down the middle. We heard the commotion of the two kids coming back down so once again I had to lay down and pretend I was dead. Turns out though it was actually my friends Chris Nate and Holly. They told me that they were pretending to be friends with the bosses children so they could get me out.
Once again though I had to pretend to be dead because the bosses kids came from the steps. My friends talked to them and were all nice. The bosses son though was beginning to start back up on his necro ways. My "dead" self couldn't take it anymore I guess and when he turned away I grabbed a nail filer off the table and stabbed him in the esophagus. The girl began to scream but I grabbed a knife off the fire place and stabbed her to. She wouldn't quit screaming so I had to keep doing it. Finally she was dead. My friends had already took off on there escape route. I followed behind until I reached the back door. There was two guards standing watch. I don't know how my friends got through unnoticed but my only option was to run for it. Just as I stepped out the door one of the guard saw me and screamed "I have target on the blonde with the blue eyes" I ran for the garage door. Just as one of the guards were going to get me a red dot appeared on his forehead. It was from a scope on a gun. As I was reaching the door I got shot in the back. It actually wasn't that painful when compared to having your face sliced open. I kept running and made it to the car. For some reason Kendra was driving. Odd. Anyway we left and headed on our way to my dads.
That's when I woke up. I've had this dream enough times though that I know what happens next.
Finally we reach my dads and make him pack his stuff up because we cant stay there. We leave and end up hiding out in a leaking barn in the rain. That's normally when I wake up
I don't know. I don't really think anything of the whole thing, I would just like to start having new dreams. Or dreams that don't consist of me working out the Dollar General because I have been having a lot of those lately to.
So it always starts out with my father doing something bad that he shouldn't have. He gets aways but I end up taking the blame. This group of guys who have the resemblance of a mob come and grab me. They take me into the basement and tie me up. There idea of killing me is grotesque. They take a knife and cut my face straight down the middle. They left me there to bleed out and die. They actually did think I was dead. They left and later the bosses sick and twisted kids came down that were my age. Generally they left me alone to act dead and what not until the boy began getting a feeling for becoming a necrophiliac. Of course I had to act dead through the whole thing. Finally they left and I came around to the present. As I woke up an old lady who I think was a witch doctor in disguise as a maid was standing in the doorway. She partially healed my face but I still have an ugly mark running down the middle. We heard the commotion of the two kids coming back down so once again I had to lay down and pretend I was dead. Turns out though it was actually my friends Chris Nate and Holly. They told me that they were pretending to be friends with the bosses children so they could get me out.
Once again though I had to pretend to be dead because the bosses kids came from the steps. My friends talked to them and were all nice. The bosses son though was beginning to start back up on his necro ways. My "dead" self couldn't take it anymore I guess and when he turned away I grabbed a nail filer off the table and stabbed him in the esophagus. The girl began to scream but I grabbed a knife off the fire place and stabbed her to. She wouldn't quit screaming so I had to keep doing it. Finally she was dead. My friends had already took off on there escape route. I followed behind until I reached the back door. There was two guards standing watch. I don't know how my friends got through unnoticed but my only option was to run for it. Just as I stepped out the door one of the guard saw me and screamed "I have target on the blonde with the blue eyes" I ran for the garage door. Just as one of the guards were going to get me a red dot appeared on his forehead. It was from a scope on a gun. As I was reaching the door I got shot in the back. It actually wasn't that painful when compared to having your face sliced open. I kept running and made it to the car. For some reason Kendra was driving. Odd. Anyway we left and headed on our way to my dads.
That's when I woke up. I've had this dream enough times though that I know what happens next.
Finally we reach my dads and make him pack his stuff up because we cant stay there. We leave and end up hiding out in a leaking barn in the rain. That's normally when I wake up
I don't know. I don't really think anything of the whole thing, I would just like to start having new dreams. Or dreams that don't consist of me working out the Dollar General because I have been having a lot of those lately to.
Monday, December 16, 2013
Not So Much A Break
This break is taking a toll on me. Then again how would you even call it a break? Everyday I work and when I'm not working I'm sleeping. I got the 23rd- 27th off from work. Hopefully it stays that way, theres a chance that it could change if we get a shipment in.
My momma and grandma came up and bought me some food and some clothes yesterday, There is no longer a chance that I will starve which is nice. I'm still tired and I've already slept 13 hours. Sigh
My momma and grandma came up and bought me some food and some clothes yesterday, There is no longer a chance that I will starve which is nice. I'm still tired and I've already slept 13 hours. Sigh
Friday, December 13, 2013
And So Break Begins
It's kinda sad watching all my friends leave to go home to there families and friends. I sit here on my bed knowing that I have work almost everyday for the next three weeks without any social interaction with anyone but Kendra. Talking to Kendra though is like talking to a brick wall. I'm not sure what escapades I will adventure into on my own within the next few weeks but I know for a fact that I will be completely on my own. Sigh.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
All Alone On the Holidays
Is it sad that I'm actually kind of excited to be living in Manchester all on my own. Me and Kendra are the only two people who are going to be staying in Oakwood. We would get to hang out but most of the time she's working when I'm not or shes going to be going home while I have to stay.
I don't know. I think its the concept that I'll finally be on my own, taking care of myself, feeding myself, and working full time. It might get lonely but I'll deal with that obstacle when it gets here.
Friday, December 6, 2013
The Ending.. I Hope
I don't know where I'm at right now. Emotionally I'm frazzled, mentally I'm gone. Every time I see him I feel like I'm going to lose it.
I thought that it was going to take me a long time to get over Chris but it turns out that its happening a lot faster then I thought it would. First there's the fact that he has a really unattractive attitude that I just cant put up with and then there's the concept that I'm pretty sure there's someone else that I'm falling for..
I thought that it was going to take me a long time to get over Chris but it turns out that its happening a lot faster then I thought it would. First there's the fact that he has a really unattractive attitude that I just cant put up with and then there's the concept that I'm pretty sure there's someone else that I'm falling for..
New School
Do you remember when I wrote that post about what my friends in Manchester were like? Well when I said it got to me when they made fun of the stuff I like or look forward to I wasn't kidding. I secretly applied to this other University because I was thinking about going there. My acceptance came in the mail and so did a really big scholarship. When I tried to mention it to Holly and Nate they told me it was stupid and not important.
This is one of my dream schools and I would love to go there but I'm not sure if I'm ready to make the commitment to leave every thing I just made and start new. I wish I had the stable backing of my friends but its apparent that, that is a lost cause here. Looks like I'm on my own, again.
This is one of my dream schools and I would love to go there but I'm not sure if I'm ready to make the commitment to leave every thing I just made and start new. I wish I had the stable backing of my friends but its apparent that, that is a lost cause here. Looks like I'm on my own, again.
Work, Finals, and Boys
I feel like when ever I tell my friends here about my life they feel awkward. I don't know. Before I left home after thanksgiving break it was made clear to me that I was not welcomed back. In that case I have signed up to work Christmas eve, Christmas day, and the day after Christmas. I don't think that I'm even going home for Christmas break to be honest.
Upon reading my blog most people probably know that I still like Chris. I mean did anyone actually excpect me to stop liking him once he told me he didn't like me? It doesn't work that way sadly. I do understand that he likes Holly though and it is starting to get to me that I'm lusting after a guy who doesn't nor will he ever want me.
Though in hindsight Nate and me have been spending a lot of time together. I don't think me and him will ever date or get together but its nice to have someone there to be my buffer. Whittney says shes going to try and set me up with Hunter since she and him are now talking. I'll believe that when its starts raining money. I still like Hunter a little bit to which is probably considered irrational since me and Hunter don't even really know each other. Sigh.
Its finals week so my stress level is at an all time high. It could be worst I guess, at least I got this whole week off from work plus I only technically have two finals and a paper so its not to bad.
Upon reading my blog most people probably know that I still like Chris. I mean did anyone actually excpect me to stop liking him once he told me he didn't like me? It doesn't work that way sadly. I do understand that he likes Holly though and it is starting to get to me that I'm lusting after a guy who doesn't nor will he ever want me.
Though in hindsight Nate and me have been spending a lot of time together. I don't think me and him will ever date or get together but its nice to have someone there to be my buffer. Whittney says shes going to try and set me up with Hunter since she and him are now talking. I'll believe that when its starts raining money. I still like Hunter a little bit to which is probably considered irrational since me and Hunter don't even really know each other. Sigh.
Its finals week so my stress level is at an all time high. It could be worst I guess, at least I got this whole week off from work plus I only technically have two finals and a paper so its not to bad.
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