Graduation

A lot of people are excited about this but I'm honestly just not that into it. We have are graduation party coming up and really i do like hanging out with people but i just dont like being social. i know that's weird but hey its whatever. I love my family but as soon as i get every ricci out there I'm almost positive Sierras gonna think I'm nuts. my family can be umm... a handful. Its a mixed race of redneck and prestigious people. yea, different is what id call it.

I am excited thought to start making cupcakes with sierra. That will be fun.

Cap and Gown

I get my cap and gown today. its still kinda unreal to me that I'm finally leaving school. I mean don't get me wrong, i am more then happy to get my butt out of here but still its just crazy to think that i spent 13 years of my life in the school system and now I'm done, I'm finally free.

i think my favorite part about finally being out of school is that I'm going to have so much more time for more activities and hanging out with my friends. me and sierra already worked out my sleeping schedule and everything :P

I do kinda feel like something in my house is going to change though. i feel like my moms going to treat me differently or something which is fine with me as long as its not stupid.

Normal

Every things pretty good. kinda mellow and boring to be exact. I'm ready for high school to be over. Right now I'm just dealing with the last of the problems.

Like get this. So knub text me last night and told me he had a story for me but wouldn't tell me what. I get to school today and he tells me that Landon is going around telling everyone that me and him had sex. umm NO NO NO. NEVER!!!! I felt like dying. but i guess hes telling everyone that i begged him to have sex with me and that i was all over him at prom and that i was begging him to come over to my house while i was texting him. ok let me set the record straight. yes i danced with him at prom but that's because i felt bad for him since his date ditched him. He did text me and ask to come over but i said NO i mean you could even read the messages if you want.

But out of all of this i want to make one thing clear. I will NEVER EVER have sex with Landon. There are line you don't cross and then there are line that you stay away from by a mile, mines the second. So he texted me in first and was like "hey Trouble" so I go "we need to talk" and i swear to god I'm gonna ripped that kids ass, and ill make sure to do it in front of everyone.

Sigh that boy is a whole different kind of stupid.

Anyway theres also the Emily thing. She keeps talking to me and acting like were Buddy Buddy but no that's not happening. this morning she sat next to me and started to talk to me so i just pulled out my kindle and started to read. I'm not dealing with her. I'm waiting for her to ask me if I'm mad at her and when she does ill make sure to tell her exactly how mad i am. but its Emily and we all know that shed rather talk crap behind your back then say anything to your face.

This is why I'm ready to get out of high school. I don't need to deal with people like Landon and Emily anymore. I'm tired of it.

Break time

I think its about time that i take a break from everyone. I need seclusion from everyone because every little thing that some people do just makes me mad. I need a break. I think this will be good for me. it will help me set out my priorities and also relax a bit. I think i might get back into doing art again. I've taken a break as of late. I really don't want to deal with people but Ive been thinking about hanging out with some old friends lately. I miss Anthony and Courtney a lot. We use to spend every summer together having fun. Maybe ill even see what Zacs up to.

You know theres thought that i might be going to the past because I'm not ready for the future but that's not true. I'm so ready to grow up and live but I'm just afraid I'm making a horrible mistake by staying in logansport. This was always something i never wanted, i never wanted to stay in logansport and go to college. but i feel like something i should do.I have two jobs and college will be cheap. i don't have to pay for housing or food. i just have to worry about school and getting a car. Its less stress but I just cant help but feel like I'm giving up everything I ever worked for.

With due time I feel like i will come to terms with my decisions. I hate regrets and i truly hope that i wont be living with any..

I got the Job (Thanks Zach), school, other stuff

Really life has just been too good to me lately. I mean not only have i been doing ah-mazing in school but I also got the new job at the theatre. I'm excited to have another job besides Camelot. My life's gonna be getting pretty hectic but i can live with that.

There for a while i was really bummed out that i was gonna go to Ivy Tech but now not so much. A lot of my friends are going there and if worst comes to worst i could always transfer to another ivy tech out of state and live with relatives. I do get those moments though when i think about college and i try to imagine what it would be like if i just chose Manchester.

We had prom over the weekend. by far one of the best nights of my life. I danced with everyone and the time just flew by. It's a little sad to think that the next step of my life is graduation but im trying not to dwell on it.

I'm ready for this weekend. me and liz are going to go see SNL. Ive never missed one since i started high school and i don't plan on starting now.

Tonight i have to go talk to my academic advisor about taking the accuplacer. He said hes pretty sure i wont have to since my test scores were so high. Lets hope I wont, i hate test.

I'm so happy about my English class right now. Are next and final project in there requires us to read dystopian books.  I LOVE DYSTOPIAN! this is probably one of the best assignments I've gotten all year.

Life after high school

You know I kind of wonder what’s going to happen when I go to college. What if I do get scholarships and it pays for everything, do I get the extra money? I hope so. I’m really taking James offer into consideration. I would love to live with away from home and I could actually see me and James being ok again. Granted he’d have to get over the fact that I would be bringing boys home. I haven’t told my mom any of this and I highly doubt he’s told his mom either. I just can’t bear the thought of being stuck at home. That was the biggest let down of the whole thing when I found out I couldn’t go to Manchester. I just want to get out on my own.  The only thing stopping me is money. How am I supposed to pay my part of everything when I only make 200 a month? I hope I get that job at the theatre so bad. I really just need the money so I can get out of here!

Super Bowl

Have I ever mentioned how much I loathe dealing with the super bowl kids? I mean don’t get me wrong I love super bowl but the people who participate in it drive me INSANE! Not to mention the whole thing is based off of who you are and where you stand. For instance I had competition today. I spent all day and then 6 hours after school studying and prepping but when it came down to competing my coach chose her daughter and her best friend to compete. I mean forget about the fact that I’m a senior and this is my last year, forget about the fact that I’m smarter and got EVERY ANSWER RIGHT, while they only got 16. I know this is a bad thing to say about your own team but I hope we don’t continue on to state, we don’t deserve it plus I can’t bear the thought of spending more time with them. The other teams are cool it’s just mine that sucks. Besides if worse comes to worst and we do go to state, I won’t go. I’m not going to deal with it anymore. There were so many other things I could be doing today but no I’m stuck at a crappy school with people I hate, doing nothing for 6 hours. Sounds like the best time someone could have I know. 

PROM

I'm so excited. this year should be really good.  don't have to worry about knub pulling anything on my like buzbee did last year. It should be so much fun. we have a car and were going to dinner with some friends. we all are gonna be owning it in are smoking hot dresses. I'm so lame

I'm just so excited to go get my nails done and be ready for prom and i want my hair to look nice. its suppose to be a dream night but ill settle for ordinary. Hopefully everything will work out well!

Graduation

Tada!

isnt it beautiful? this is what we did the other day. besides ignorng the honks and staes it was actually pretty cool of a day and we got the front of are invites done. Now i just have to finish designing them and we should be on the right track.

Shape Up and Ship Out

So Ive been working really hard to get healthy and fit. Ive been eating really balanced meals and i try to work out at least two hours a day. i take vitamins, and get a good amount of sleep. I don't know, i really actually feel like i can do this. After I cut out pop and juice everything else just seemed like it needed to happen. No i cant tell you ow much i have lost because mainly i don't even know. Ill hit you up with those digits when i find out. For now just wish me luck. I'm gonna need it!

Get Fit

So good new is Sierra, Liz, and I are all part of this pack to get fit while we kill cannibals (not really). But so far I'm doing really good. I was up at 5 this morning working out. Ive been drinking a lot of water and no pop.  Hopefully i can keep this up!

Good Life

I've really been down on My life a lot lately. But you know if you look at it I've been having an amazing year. Not only have me and sierra been having fun but Ive also been getting out doing a lot of new stuff. Ive met so many new people and have actually been talking to a lot of old friends.

I've got over all of my shy tendencies. I'm a lot more bold then what i use to be. I can easily meet new people and not by shy about it.

Me and Gage have been hanging out and talking a lot. He's actually a lot nicer and sweeter then most people give him credit to be. I'm a huge supporter of second chances and ever since i gave him one hes done nothing but impress me :)

Piercings, Nails, and Money

Other than my college problems, life is going pretty good right now. I've been talking to a lot of people that I don't really ever talk to.I might be getting a third job which is so exciting. I need the money! God i need money for so much, college, trips, living, a car. Everything cost money and my parents practically cut me off forever ago.

So my latest accomplishment for of late is that I've been growing out my nails for over a week! This is the longest I've gone with out chewing on them in like forever! Hopefully i can keep them long.

I'm so in love with my nose piercing. Its probably one of my best decisions I've made in a long time, its so amazing.

College Probs.

I know story of my life right.

So I'm really hoping that I don't get stuck at Ivy Tech. I have worked my butt off too much for that to happen. Why the hell is my family so fucking poor!? I don't know what I'm going to do. id rather just go to Vincennes than Ivy Tech. But hell who knows, maybe ill end up at IUK and live with my dad.

I just cant get over how much of my life i will be giving up. Ive had this dream of getting out of this town, traveling, living in a dorm and experiencing all of that. Now just because i cant find $8000 I get none of that. I feel like someone crushed the one true thing that Ive always want.

Sigh

Now I'm done with my sob story.

Art

My next project will kill me

Fall out boy

So I've always been in love with fall out boy. They finally got back together which that in itself was amazing but now they've let out there 2nd single called Phoenix and i love it! its traditional fall out boy. that's what i love. a lot of people don't like it but I'm flat out in love with it. One day ill see them in concert, no questions asked!

liars

Ok where do i begin, I really hate people who lie. Excpecially people who lie about being abused. I was talking to one of my friends (names will not be mentioned) well she was telling me this story about this guy she was abused by. I've always been what ever with her because i know she lies. Well i kinda knew she was lying this time.

I went home after she told me this and talked to the guy, he denied the whole thing. This just makes me mad. its one thing to lie. its another thing to lie like that.

Pissed off

It really makes me mad when people act like there better than me. Just because you have nicer things and are able to do more does not make you better! Seriously I do get that there are going to be better people out there but even if that's the case you just end up making yourself look worst when you rub it in someones face.

Lately I've just been struggling with people acting like there better then me. yea i might act weird and do things differently. I might be poor, i might not look like everyone else but i work with what i got and i choose to be this way. So deal with it and keep your mouths shut because it really just pisses people off.

Best. Day. Ever!

Omg i don't even know where to begin. Last night was by far one of the best nights of my life. I got to see my future husband Neil Westfall! Hes one fine piece of man! Here's a play by play of the night. Pictures are included! :)

This was the ending, the grand finale, the best damn concert ever!

So the day started out good. I got out of school early!

Were offf! driving on our way to Indi.

We had time to kill so we went to carmel and hung out in the art district.

We found a really cool thrift store that just happened to be JUST LIKE the one in Kokomo

Ok so I don't have a picture for the next part but after we left we walked past a tattoo salon where sierra convinced me to get my nose pierced. So yea, now i have my nose pierced.

Finally made it to the concert!

First band, Chuck No Captain Chuck. We moshed are way to the front but after being attacked by everyone we ended up going to the back

This is where Sierra Lost her damn phone but lucky for her but the security people found it and met up with us to give it back.

Of Mice and Men, Kinda blurry but hey are seating was forever far away

A DAY TO FREAKING REMEMBER! nuff said

So here the highlight of the night. The manager of A day to remember came up to us and took us all the way to the front of the crowd. Practically in front of the grates. It was better the VIP seating! I will forever be greatful for that man!

Jeremy :) Plus our new seats

My husband Neil. He so damn hott!

there he is doing his thing. Sigh. (fangirl moment)

Well that was my night. I didnt get home till 1:30 and only got a few hours of sleep but it was amazing. Plus My mom found out about my nose piercing. Some how she knew... Ill have to look into that...

Todays the day!

YAY!!! whooo!. today is the day that i get to go to the concert. My moms calling me out of school early, sierras picking me up and then were off to see A Day to Remember and Of Mice and Men. Im so freaking excited. I have a mental countdown going on in my head! Whoooooo!

Goood Newssss

well where to begin

First- tomorrow is the day of the concert and this chick is freaking excited!
Second- I finished my Commercial art project like a week ahead of everyone.
Third- Im gonna be a rebel and skip Academic Super Bowl tonight.

OMG DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA

that girl jessicas trying to start stufff mmmmmhmmm bring it gurl!


(Side Note: "Zac's making fun of Jessica Boots over here" I only write this because they told me too.)

Bahaha im such a riot!

Peace out girl scout

(this is not for BEEVA!)