So this is a whiny post, get over it.
Seriously I dont even know what to do with my life right now. I am so over my pretentious friends. Ive been talking to Jordan a lot and he remind me off what I'm missing. Maybe Manchester isn't the school for me. I have seriously been giving it a lot of thought.. I think I might transfer to ISU. I mean Manchester is amazing and I have a 4 year plan and everything is nice, I just think maybe the people I'm associating with aren't the right ones for me. Some times there awesome but a lot of the time they prove themselves to be stuck up ass holes. I don't want to be like that. I want to go back to the old Amanda. I was happier then. Now I just feel like my life is on an endless cycle and its driving me crazy.
Theres a few things I made my friends aware of here right away:
Mt biggest insecurity is feeling like no one likes me and wants me around.
I'm bi-polar, have depression, and anxiety attacks
I'm not rich
I cant keep doing the same things continuously
I can go from destroyed to crazy maniac bitch in 3 seconds
I guess they didn't give a fuck when I told them this because they've pretty much secluded me, rubbed money in my face, given me shit over my anxiety, keep doing the same things and then got mad because I didn't want to. And then with the last one, I was loosing it earlier and actually thought about making there lifes a living hell. Sigh I don't even know what to do anymore.
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