Poem

So I was going through my old poem books and just happened to come across one of my favorite poems. I wrote this back in high school but for some reason I'm just so in love with it.

For years I've trusted you with numerous secrets,

you've tried convincing me of things like no one else has,

My mask hardly ever fooled you,

And you always see through my tears;

You quickly found out that I was dying on the inside, 

When you see my cuts

You shake your head and know better then to lecture me,

Soon you realized I was suicidal

And for the first time it looked like YOU were falling apart

I know that you too, wear a mask

Yet you always find ways to make me smile

And you even make me face my "silly" fears

Even though we have our moment,

You have always been one of my best friends

Not once did you betray me;

You have always been someone I can speak my soul to

You laugh with me when im being stupid

And your always there to try and catch me when I fall

But when I do fall, your there to pick me back up again

Once you told me to not give up on life

That theirs something good in my future

And to just keep holding on even though im slipping

These words still play in my head

When Im picking up that knife

Pouring out those pills

Forming the noose

Or using that utensil to cut

I just wish I could somehow repay you..

I know in a way this poem is a little odd. Maybe it may strike you as a bit suicidal. To be honest when this was written, I was young and going through a hard time. This is were my mind was at and this is how I saw the world.