Soc 101

I'm seriously losing my shit here. Every time I even think about my Sociology class I have a small mental break down. i have no idea how I'm going to do any of this. My OCD is kicking in and I'm find myself categorizing and making everything into life. Ugh I don't know what to do!

Old Times and New

How do I explain my friends here in Manchester. Well i guess there a bit rough around the edges. If any normal person would look upon our group I'm sure they would all think we held a huge distaste in each other. We compliment each other with insults and repeatedly tell each other till "kill yourself". Its all fun, no ones actually serious. It does ware on you though sometimes. For instance, when I make a comment about something I like or something that I want to do and then you have them ripping it down.

I guess that's when i realize that nothing can really replace my friends back home. While I sit here and want to go to the blueberry festival and Warped tour, my friends her sit there and say its stupid. Sigh. This is what makes me love my friends back home. I know that In the end they would do these things with me in a heart beat because they love them just as much as I do.

I'm calming down with the joking among my friends when it comes to the category of ugly comments and distaste. I do have things in common with the people here but not to the extent that I do with my Sierra. I miss all the stupid things we use to do like ramping the tracks, just dance, going to applebees, or pranking mariah's car. I guess I never realized how much I was gonna miss that stuff until I didn't do it anymore, or at least didn't have anyone to do it with me.

This thanksgiving break is long awaited. I cant wait to see my friends again and get into some sort of trouble.

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TEN HOW'S:

How did you get one of your scars?

Well the one on my arms from a frying pan

How did you celebrate your last birthday?

Laser Tag and Applebees

How are you feeling at this moment?

Tired as fuck

How did your night go last night?

Not that best

How did you do in high school?

It was up and down. Mostly Down

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?

I think I got it at Emmaus

How often do you see ur best friend?

I dont even know who that is anymore

How much money did you spend last month?

ha! like 20 dollars

How old do you want to be when you get married?

25

How old will you be at your next birthday?

20

 

NINE WHAT'S:

Your mothers name?

Deanna

What did you do last weekend?

Game of Thrones marathon

What is the most important part of your life?

Olivia will always be most important

What would you rather be doing?

Sleeping

What did you last cry over?

I realized that I dont have a home anymore

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?

Talking about it

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?

Someone whos generally nice

What are you worried about?

Failing my Soc class

What did you have for breakfast?

Nothin

 

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?

Twice

Have you ever had your heartbroken?

On multiple occasions

Have you ever been out of the country?

Not yet

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?

Erry day

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?

more then you can imagine

Have you ever had sex on the beach?

sounds horrible

Have you ever dated someone younger than you?

once

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?

Sadly this happens alot

 

SEVEN WHO’S:

Who was the last person you saw?

Katie

Who was the last person you texted?

Chris

Who was the last person you hungout with?

Nate, Dylan, KDG, Chris, Nathan

Who was the last person to call you?

Nate Wynn

Who did you last hug?

That a good question

Who is the last person who texted you?

Nate Hawkins

Who was the las person you said "i love you" to?

Dad

 

SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?

Logansport

Where did you last go?

Computer Lab

Where did you last hang out?

Hellman

Where do you go to school?

Manchester University

Where is your favorite place to be?

At the river

Where did you sleep last night?

In my bed

 

FIVE DO’S/DOES:

Do you like someone right now?

Always

Do you think anyone likes you?

Probably not

Do you ever wish you were someone else?

Every once in a while

Do you know the muffin man?

No but I know Love muffin

Does the future scare you?

No I'm ready for it

 

FOUR WHY’S:

Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?

Cause the bitches are just like me

Why did you get a myspace?

It seemed right at the time

Why did your parents give you the name you have?

My dad said because it was his ex girlfriends

Why are you doing this survey?

Bored I guess

 

THREE IF’S:

If you could have one super power what would it be??

Invisibility

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?

Umm yea a few things

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?

A boat sounds nice

 

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:

Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?

One maybe

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?

Id shave it even if it wasnt for someone else

 

ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?

Depends on the day

Quiz it UP

1. real name:
Amanda Ricci

2. like it:

 Its been working for me

3. single or taken:

 Single

4. zodiac sign:

Libra

5. male or female:

Female

6. age:

19

7. height:

5'7''

8. lucky number:

9

9. eye color:

Blue

10. hair color:

Brwon-ish

11. long or short:

inbetween

12. marital status:

Um still single

13. are you a health freak:

Ha! probably should be

14. height:

We Just went through this

15. do you have a crush on someone:

Indeed I do

16. do you like yourself:

More of less

17. piercings:

11 of them

18. tattoos:

3 of them

19. righty or lefty:

right

20. fav color:

silver

21. least fav color:

green

 

FIRSTS

22. first kiss:

Riley Goode. Preschool

23. first piercing:

Normal ears

24. first best friend:

Courtney Wingardner

25. first award:

Um probably an art award

26. first sport:

Volleyball

27. first pet:

I think it might of been a dog

28. first vacation:

Disney world

29. first car:

PT Cruiser

30. first crush:

Um I think his name was Zeke

 

CURRENTLY

31. what time is it:

11:51

32. where are you:

Computer Lab

33. wish:

I dont know, Im kinda thirsty

34. about to:

Probably go sleep

35. listening to:

I think its the air vent

36. waiting for:

Nothing

37. wearing:

Hoodie and jeans

38. annoyed about:

My irrational attitude latley

39. eating:

Just ate at the Oaks

40. drinking:

Still thirsty

 

FUTURE

41. want kids?:

YES!

42. want to get married?:

Maybe, theyed have to get through my fear of marriage

43. careers in mind?:

Social worker

44. dream car?:

87 Camaro

 

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX

45. lips or eyes?:

Eyes

46. hugs or kisses:

Depends on who they are

47. shorter or taller:

Talla

48. tan skinned or light:

Hmm doesnt really matter

49. romantic or spontaneous:

spontaneous

50. dark or light hair:

Dark

51. built, fat, muscular, skinny, or normal:

Doesnt matter, as long as there happy

52. hook up or relationship:

Kinda in the mood for a relationship

53. similar to you or different:

Inbetween

54. trouble maker or hesitant:

Mischevious is always fun

 

HAVE YOU EVER

55. kissed a stranger:

Yes

56. drank bubbles:

Uh from my milk

57. ate a crayon:

Not that I remembre

58. lost glasses/contacts:

So many times

59. climbed up a tree:

Yes and then fell out of it

60. broken someone's heart:

sigh yes

61. been arrested:

never been charged bro

62. turned someone down:

mmhmm

63. cried when someone died:

I miss my Aubs

64. liked a friend as more than a friend:

story of my life

 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

65. yourself:

Depends on what im doing

66. miracles:

Nope

67. ghosts:

Yes

68. love at first sight:

Nope

69. santa clause:

Ha Sometimes

70. heaven and hell:

I beleive in limbo

71. kissing on the first date:

Sure why not

72. God:

Nope

 

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

73. Is there one person you want to be with right now?

Yes!

74. Who is it?

Bro just read my blog

75. Do you kiss on the first date?

I have

76. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?

Ew no

77. Last time you flossed?

Like 5 minutes ago

78. Last time checked for STDs?

Almost a month ago

80. Flirt with your friends boyfriend or girlfriend?

My friends need cuter boyfriends I guess

81. Cheat on a partner?

Never!

82. Whats under your bed?

Pretty much everything I own

83. Last time you cleaned your toilet?

Thats my suit mates job

84. Ever sprout hairs on your chin?

not that i've noticed

85. Does the carpet match the curtains?

We don't have carpet. :)

86. Last kiss?

Egh gage

87. Last booty call?

More or less Gage

88. 7th text received?

It was to Katie

89. 4th missed call?

My roomate Jessica

90. Last comment received?

My grandma applauding me for giving blood

91. Sleep with a stuffed animal?

No time for that

92. Last time you cried?

Like 3 weeks ago when I had a mental break down

93. Pee in pools?

not regularly

94. Ever stolen something?

Its happened a time or two

95. Ever drink milk from the carton?

Ew no

96. Mad at anyone?

Errry day

97. Ever rock a mullet?

One day man!

98. Last tuxedo worn?

What you talkin about im wearing onw right now!

99. Last video game played

Oh jeeze umm Build- A - Lot

Another One

Hmm life's been a bit interesting lately. Me and Jordan have been talking ALOT! I'm not thinking me and him would get back together or anything. He lives 3 and half hours away from me first off. Besides I like Chris and that wouldn't be fair to him. But then again in all honesty its not really fair to me to hang up on a guy that doesn't like me that way. I'm ready for break to start, I'm ready to see friends and get food that's not from the union.

Good Life

I'm feeling pretty good about life right now. I got the job at Timbercrest, Family Video, Dollar General and as a student Ambassador. My dads coming up today to fill my tank so I can actually go home during break. I'm definitely in a better mood.

Bad Day

Today just slowly keeps getting worst and worst. I swear I worked my ass off to get a good grade of the Soc exam and I got the complete opposite, then I had to deal with Whitney bragging about how shes getting the Social work assistant job. I don't know small things are adding up and there really starting to get to me. I need a break from school and reality. I am however glad that I had My Comm class today. I seriously love my group so much, we have way to much fun. Actually its probably just because Matthews in there to be honest. I so don't like Matt in that way but I do love talking to him. He generally makes my day better.

I dont really have a title for this one

This thing with Chris feels a lot like my relationship with Gage, minus the sex of course. I don't know I mean one moment this kid is generally one of the coolest people I know and the next moment hes a complete ass hole. Like all day today he's been rude and yet I put up with it. I just need to get over it anyway. Chris like Holly a hella lot. Its like the duo plus me. Doesn't matter I actually told him stuff about my life and now he thinks I'm a condescending narcissistic trouble maker. So it might be true but I regret nothing that I've done.

In other words. I'm going home again here in a week and a half. I'm not upset about going home, I would love some real home cooked food. I hate Union food. I'm not excited to see my mom or my grandma for that mater. I am ready to see Nick, my dad, and my friends. I'm starting to understand the concept of change more and more as each day progresses, in good time this will all just be another life experience.

Last Nights Charades

Last night brought up some serious feels. I mean it was bound to happen after 2 cups of cherry vodka, 2 cups of straight ever clear, and 2 shots of tequila. I found out more of what going on with Chris, he told me who he liked which was obvious but it was still a blow. He says he likes the concept but lets be real, hes been in love with that girl since the first day. Then he told me about his girl back home, I wished him luck and cheered him on. He needs a good girl in his life even though all I feel like he's doing is trying to get sex.

I know what your thinking "here it comes" yea I guess here is comes. This is cracking into the vault of level four stuff. What the hell does this guy see in all these girls? I mean lets be real. I'm probably the only one who's legitly there for him and talks to him a lot, from what I noticed I'm the only one that's genuinely nice. I like him so much and it doesn't even matter. I'm stuck between this being a good thing because I don't want to ruin my friendship and being upset because I feel like I just lost someone important.

With all this being said its kinda brought up my feelings of graduation and that in general is killing me inside. That was such a horrible day for me.

Grow Up

I defiantly don't want to skip all of my college experiences but to be honest I'm just so tired of seeing everyone starting there life's already. I'm ready to be married and have kids. I'm so over being in school. Yea I know, I should really cherish the fun I'm having now because when I get older I wont be able to do this anymore. I don't know, Ill get over all of this I'm sure but for now I'm just having a day.

Feels

So last night was a pretty good night. I laid everything out with Chris and the kid generally seemed upset to realize that his words actually have an impact on people. We hung out and my room and somehow ended up calling it the Hurt Locker where we make feels. Its to make sense, after are hour of trying to hurt each other on purpose, we ended up telling stories in our life's. Hopefully things will stay good between us all now.

I know I'm not helping the situation much by the way I acted this morning but I seriously woke up in the worst mood ever. It doesn't help that pretty much everyone went to lunch with out me. Or maybe I'm just unsettled by the dream I had last night of Chris. I really cant get back into that kind of thing. I'm almost positive he thinks I'm done with him because last night I told him I like most guys until I get to know them then I'm over then, and we were talking about Manchester boys.

It would be best if me and him didn't happen but go ahead and tell my sub conscious that, I'm sure it would listen to you and would stop with all the dreams and thoughts. Oh well. I'm good at pretending that every things normal and I know I can hang out with him without him knowing.

hmm

Am I allowed to say that this whole Cassie thing is getting to me. First off the girl was my best friend from fourth grade to my sophomore year. Yea we had two years of turmoil but now that were friends again I do have the realization that I never stopped caring for her. I can't get over the fact the shes pregnant. I mean this girl is continuously getting kicked out of her house, has no diploma, no job, does drugs like a crack head, and to be honest has no real idea what It's like to raise a child.

I've given some thought to the situation. I'm assuming Cassie had to have gotten pregnant around the time her nephew was born. Either she realized that everyone around her was growing up or she got the baby disorder from her nephew. I can speak first hand about what that's like. When Olivia was born I was automatically so in love with her that I seriously just wanted my own. I don't think people understand how strong the bond is between an aunt and there nephew or niece.

Either or I am scared for her but in a small way I'm also jealous. Though it is already a given that she will struggle for the rest of her life at least shes starting one. I still have four if not six years left of school, and then I have to go through so many works study programs. I could see me not having a child untill my late 20's which kinda upsets me. I want to have a kid at 25! I don't know. In the end I wish her luck but to be honest I have a huge idea that she will have anything but that.