Feels

So last night was a pretty good night. I laid everything out with Chris and the kid generally seemed upset to realize that his words actually have an impact on people. We hung out and my room and somehow ended up calling it the Hurt Locker where we make feels. Its to make sense, after are hour of trying to hurt each other on purpose, we ended up telling stories in our life's. Hopefully things will stay good between us all now.

I know I'm not helping the situation much by the way I acted this morning but I seriously woke up in the worst mood ever. It doesn't help that pretty much everyone went to lunch with out me. Or maybe I'm just unsettled by the dream I had last night of Chris. I really cant get back into that kind of thing. I'm almost positive he thinks I'm done with him because last night I told him I like most guys until I get to know them then I'm over then, and we were talking about Manchester boys.

It would be best if me and him didn't happen but go ahead and tell my sub conscious that, I'm sure it would listen to you and would stop with all the dreams and thoughts. Oh well. I'm good at pretending that every things normal and I know I can hang out with him without him knowing.