hmm

Am I allowed to say that this whole Cassie thing is getting to me. First off the girl was my best friend from fourth grade to my sophomore year. Yea we had two years of turmoil but now that were friends again I do have the realization that I never stopped caring for her. I can't get over the fact the shes pregnant. I mean this girl is continuously getting kicked out of her house, has no diploma, no job, does drugs like a crack head, and to be honest has no real idea what It's like to raise a child.

I've given some thought to the situation. I'm assuming Cassie had to have gotten pregnant around the time her nephew was born. Either she realized that everyone around her was growing up or she got the baby disorder from her nephew. I can speak first hand about what that's like. When Olivia was born I was automatically so in love with her that I seriously just wanted my own. I don't think people understand how strong the bond is between an aunt and there nephew or niece.

Either or I am scared for her but in a small way I'm also jealous. Though it is already a given that she will struggle for the rest of her life at least shes starting one. I still have four if not six years left of school, and then I have to go through so many works study programs. I could see me not having a child untill my late 20's which kinda upsets me. I want to have a kid at 25! I don't know. In the end I wish her luck but to be honest I have a huge idea that she will have anything but that.