Of course it was to be expected that I would get caught up in a guy. I mean I never blew off my friends or anything I just let him get so twisted into my mind that it gave me anxiety. Yea no I'm not gonna let that happen. Me and my mom had a nice little talk. The outcome of which has set me in the spot I'm at now where I'm going to continue to hang out with Gage but I'm not going to force it.
Let it be said though that I do kinda feel like i put in more effort then he does when it comes to planning when and where were going to hang out. I don't want that. Things have to be equal for us. So I'm going to lay off a bit. Its his move now .
Hopefully I can figure out this whole balance thing when it comes to boys. Ive yet to master the in between effect you get between not caring and caring to much. Its my own personal struggle.
On top of all this I still have David Daniel John and James all breathing down my throat asking me to hang out. James being more persistent then most. I dont care I'm not going to ruin whats happening right now.
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